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I currently dig through my backlog of original Erotica as I augment my blog, and I stumbled upon some gems from 2015 that made me Think About You. Swish. Swoosh. Splish. Splash. Sploosh. That is how I envision the experience of You taking my hand once we'll be Together Together, and Claiming Me As Your Very Own. Premeditated about at length on your part, and yet also unscripted and spontaneous in your own singular way. Feral Me taken along and claimed by You My Dearest Maria. This whisp of Something, this Swishy-Swoosh is coming for which I've not yet found the words. You'll tug gently on my wrist and with gaze beckon me to follow in your wake. I'll look into your eyes but I will have no words of my own, neither Word nor Emotion. Only this Swishy-Swoosh Sploosh, this swirl whorly whirl of Emotions that You'll send my way; won't sink-in right away but I will follow quietly in your wake. Let myself be warmed up gently, softly, qu...

Where waves crash, the dawn breaks. Sun rises to the east, and trails upon,...the west. Sheltered from sun's rays, I can cry these tears by myself, forgiven thus for my sins. Wipes away tears underneath forest pines, goes quietly into the night. Inner side reflects deeply within, turns away so quietly weeps, forgiven thus of my sins. Melted away like candle, Life begins again. ######## https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Candle_in_the_dark.JPG https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/0/01/Candle_in_the_dark.JPG

Today I felt really, really Inadequate. Zhuh, Uh Bunny Bunny Hat Trick for somebody else's cheap amusement. Bunny Bunny Hat Trick. It's not a pleasing feeling to feel or hold. Causes me pain because it is pain. And I feel pain. Pain that I've let others cast upon me, black spell of destruction that I do not want. Bunny Ihn Deh Hat, at the mercy of my handler and his/her whims, that was me today and I did not enjoy it. Retire for the night and sleep it off. Embrace this feeling for the Passing Phase that it is. Sensation will come and go.

Uhz. Uhz. Uhz. Uhz.

I look forward to the day when I'll be there with You, and You'll be able to have all of my Body as Your Own, welcome to run your Lady Fingers and place your Lady Palms all over me, wherever and whenever You shall please. And You'll be able to ask me any Question on a very real Face To Face basis; for Nothing and No Place will be Off Limits, not for You My Dearest Sol. Eat Me, Drink Me, Touch Me, Partake Of Me, Fully, Openly, Deeply, Such Unparalleled Delight In My Everywhere, My Everything.

It is a feeling that is difficult to describe, but it is the feeling that makes me say to myself, "I want to share the rest of my life with You Sol, as My Best Friend and My Forever Partner." I get this Feeling, and it never makes me feel bad. Only positive Growth do I experience when I focus on, Us. No reason or incentive for me to discard our Super Closeness between us for someone else, because, well, You are such an amazing person to have in my life, Sol. Why Desire for whatever grass may be "greener" on the other side, when I already have something very truly Uh May Zing cultivated with You? I Love You, Sol. Really, Truly.

When I think of You Maria, I think,...Delicious. Multi-Sensory Paradise, mellow, quiet, and vivid in your presence, and in many ways an Outlier, very much a Good Different, a scent, a presence, and a texture, a rare valuable fabric that I simply can not put down. Feels so good on the inside, to Hold You Closely. And it will be The Greatest Thing Ever, to Hold You Closely during my Holiday next year.

Theh Maria, Touch, Dittie Bhip, Patter Pitter Patter, Diis Lickey Lick Lick. Lyke Theh Finger Tips Uh Deh Fluffy Cat Mhee Upon Hurr Suprasternal Notch, Padded Squishy Paws Ahn Long Prominent Whiskers Lyke Hurr Quiet Sunrise Gaze Dat Lingers, Sparkle, Reflection, Ihn Hurr Eyes. Lipstick Renewal Ahn Delish, Sguish, Deh Fluffy Cat Paws Uhn Hurr Filipino Cheeks, Gracile Uhn Hurr Lips, Soh Soft Lyke Finest Ouv Silk. Ken Nott Resist Thuh Taste Ouv Hurr Skin, Supple Uh Deh Flesh Within, Padded Yellow Collar Orange, Leash, Frumm Which Little Bell H a n g s, Ling Uh Ding, Ding Uh Ling Ling. Fluffy Cat Mellow Purr, Elegant Ihn Hurr Step, Soh Quietly Where She Sits, Taste Ouv Hurr, Skin, Fluffy Cat Mhee, Partakes. Oh Yes. Oh Yes. Oh Yes. Oh Yes. Theh Maria, Yes Please.

This Could Be Us, Love.

Yes, I will very much enjoy our shared film appreciation time when Together next year. One of many things to which I look for that Holiday to come. For me it will be a profoundly special experience to sit there with You and share the space in the ways that we shall. Can't wait to gaze deeply into your own Gaze, more times than I'll be able to count. Fleeting, inquisitve, seductive glances. And deeply mellow eye contact, too. So soothing, your quiet presence will I welcome fully. I look forward to sitting down with You uhn, Deh LSD Couch; I want to nudge in closely, and Hold Your Lady Hands in mine. The warmth of your delicate fingers and soft palms will I savour, yes, and so too will your taste, linger. Your softness and suppleness of form and your Energy radiant yes, I will savour it all and let your presence seep deeply within me. That your Touch and Warmth Of Energy shall infiltrate my deepest thoughts and Emotions, and bring out all of these deep Feelings that I hold...

You are my shooting star.

I derive so much enjoyment whenever I receive a warm candid message of any sort from You. Especially when I wake up to them in the morning my time. After decades of Social, Emotional Isolation, it is something that I cherish beyond words, to be able to wake up in the morning to a loving candid message from someone who has chosen to become Close and ever Closer with me. It is a very rare experience, as most have long ago Ditched me. But when it does indeed happen, I feel right then and there like I'm The Luckiest Person In The Entire World, It is these many little simple gestures of Affection that mean the most to me, of all that I know to be Good. Sounds Trivial I know, yes, but for those who've Lived Without for a lifetime, those simple gestures from without are something of very profound Value. Uplifts me more than I'll ever be able to say in words. I want to continue to share with You an abundance of my own Affection, because I wish for You to feel as Loved as I do...

Oh, how I wish to find You sitting on the bed. There will I settle down right behind You, and with legs wrapped around yours, will I softly pull You back to lean so closely against me. In and within and completely here at rest, once upon tension but now passed and within this Relaxation. I'll slip my strong left hand and fingers under your shirt, up gently past your navel, so that I may snake one finger between the centerline of your bra, and caress your supple breasts, Relaxation, awaits. And with my right hand, will I quietly reach under your pants and underwear, and rub your clit and your labia while holding your bum against my now firm, hard member. I want to feel your body gently pulse, let go of Tension and, tenderly throb, and your quiet moans of pleasure return, within Relaxation thus reaffirmed, with my left hand massaging your breasts and tugging your erect nipples, while with my other hand I stroke your now dripping labia, and rub Your Lady Essence between my stro...

Yuh know, Maria. Been Dreaming About You again as I so often do when focused intently on my Growth. I picture myself sitting down with You on a pleasing Spring day, in the generous shade of a big tree, Spring flowers abound and in full bloom around us. And there do we settle down, after a walk together by the waterfront. Your thoughts and words manifest and are shared, so selective and so carefully chosen, as I sit there with You, listening, partaking of your flow, your thoughts, and your ideas. Touch of a Genius, distinct texture like the horsehair strands of a violin bow. And I let it all soak in gently and softly. That You so freely share your poetic flow with me, as I sit there beside You and Listen. Need not be over-thought or rehearsed, simply the feelings that will manifest in the moment. Welcomed and shared, set free and vibrant and shared as the flowering plants that blossom around us, no matter how subdued or subtle the colour, still so full of Colour and Colouration...

That sound of mammalian claws upon hard walking surfaces. Namely, from household companion animals such as large-footed dogs, guinea pigs, descented skunks, and the like. It's Deh Patter Patter Pitter Patter Pitter Pitter Patter, Dat Ay Ken Nott, Resist. I've been thinking Soh, Soh Much, about getting my hands aoull ouvrr, Yooooo. Your quirks and dimples will be a perfect fit for mai Fingers, and the softness of your Skin will feel especially pleasing against my strong calloused Paws and Fingertips, Rubbie, Rubbie Rub Rub Rub, leave mai Paw Prints Aoull Ouvrr Yooooo, strokes again along your suppleness of form from which follows function and idea that is thought, singular dip of your Navel and the round of your Hips, Guish Squish Sguish Ouvv Youhrr Bum, Filipino Eyes Ahn Lips, Maroon Tango Bliss as I so gently pull You in softly with my Wolfie Paws around your Hips, such, such is the sweet mango fragrance of Spring. Velvetey Smooth in texture, where the words will...

We should seriously co-author a book of Poetry and Prose. I feel that if we were to start sitting down together on a regular basis, we would find ourselves finishing each other's sentences in conversation, sometimes by Voice, and sometimes by Body Language, unspoken message that sometimes speaks volumes above all that is Voiced. And I feel that our back-and-forth Pitter Patter Patter Pitter Patter, will once transcribed and edited, manifest as a profound work of Literature worthy of publication even if only for our own Pleasure.

It all started with uh simple Lickey Lick Lick, upon Demonstration Ouvv Technique. Lyke Diis. Diis. Lyke Diis. Diis. Diis.

Lights Out. Yeah, it's that time of the month. I'll be around, Maria. Let's continue to focus on The Positive, and build From Strength To Strength. We have the rest of our lives ahead of us to manifest and remanifest This Greatness; this Truth will always reign supreme, for with every new day will we be Blessed, a new opportunity to Grow and so profoundly embrace The Righteous Path. Message me anytime. Freely, openly, and without judgement. Your input and perspective are both very important and valued to me, and I will always be Attentive for You. Busy work weekend awaits. Yeah. Maria is an ever-evolving Work Of Art. Her Quirks and Imperfections are what make her so Unique and Desireable. Oh Yes, your Gifts and your Blessings coalesced, arised and manifested from the light of your Singularity. Yeah, Maria is definitely a Work Of Art. You're a much stronger Lady than what Your Inner Voice might convey or reveal. You speak yes, of your relative Fragility;...

It must be a Crime these days to use Facebook with a Non Smart Phone. I should post a new Nude of myself to Facebook, just to see if they'll lock my account again. Lock me up in Facebook Jail. Lock me up in The Hole. They'll lock me away in Facebook Jail. And then You'll need to come Visit Me. Visitation Hours.

I look forward to holding You in my arms. Bum 1 nudged right up there with Bum 2, Rubbie Rub Rub. Your skin against my skin. Your Lady Hands holding my hands. And my coarse palms and fingertips all over You, Spa Treatment for Your Body and for Your Mind. Set at ease, gentle and full release of stress and of tension as my strong hands caress and tend to your tired parts, tension will be released and so too will Your Deepest Thoughts be. Spa Treatment offered for Maria, my Hands and my Attentiveness just for You, as we'll freely share our prose, and cuddle and caress, so too will our Emotions be right at home. I want to Make You Drip, and Make You Wet; that You will know fully that You may share anything with me, your deepest thoughts and ideas, dreams, lusts, and Emotions, and that I will fully present in the moment Listen, and satisfy your deepest unspoken wishes. I want to make You get Wet and Drip, knowing that I will be so deeply attentive to your Thoughts, Emotions, and De...

I cummed profusely last night before bed, Thinking About You a great deal. Because, Maria, Ihs, Really, Really, Really. Hawt. I wanna Hold You Closely, Warmly, Gently, and Cuddle together in the nude. A long, steamy, comforting, mutual embrace. All of your Vulnerabilities will be there for me to hold; your every imperfection and dimple will be mine to savour, taste and taste again, yet again, and nothing will ever be out of place. Maria, My Everything, I want to taste and savour all that is You. I want very deeply to Make You Cum, not just once, but many, many times. Bring You up slowly and gradually, and savour the moment with You. Your Body and Your Emotions are like a Symphony, and to bring them out fully through This Close Physical Intimacy With You, oh yes that makes Suul drip at the mere thought. Dats Thuh Stuff, Mai Maria. And, falling asleep in the nude with You, Maria. A final Good Night for the day now finished. with You in my arms as we'll drift o...

You are this special to me.

Just finished work. On my way home. Wanna share with You, a Something. I have a difficult time to warm up emotionally to most. Takes me a while sometimes, because of some decades-long rewiring and programming. But when the time shall come for Us Together to manifest, I'll place my full Trust in You to handle me with care, and share your deep Empathy with me. I will resist your Advances in the flesh, subtly yet noticeably so. Because I still work on breaking down my old Programming. But Persist Maria, Persist. Make your close Advances upon me, and engage me generously with your Gentle Lady Touch. And thus will I become Disarmed. Your presence will very much bring out my soft and gentle side, the part that feels emotions deeply, but that is repressed by The Non-Civilian Me. For You to engage me so gently and intimately on your own accord, will be for me to relive much of the film The Green Mile. I relate to the dark-skinned main character prisoner, yes, yes I do, very deepl...

I do believe that when I'll Visit, You will like me so much in the flesh that You'll ask me to Stay Forever with You. I sense that something like that will manifest, and come time for my Visit, You shall pour yourself out to me in ways that never thought imaginable. Highly Aware yes am I of your Very Deep, Very Real Love for Me, Maria. That I know to be True. But I sense that when we'll finally sit down in the flesh, just the two of us there Together, You will open up with me in a manner so Real and Visceral and Genuine. And in turn, will my Loyalty and Real Love For You, only deepen and mature. Please, Maria. When I'll finally come over for a Visit early next year, my desire is that You shall so fully and deeply embrace The Entire Me. Please do, take my hand, and claim all that is my Body, and all that is my Mind, and all that manifests as my Spirit. I so wanna be Your Sun God and Your Fifth Note, once there for my Visit. Please. Please do, put your Lady Hands a...

Oooooooooooooo, Dats Uh Lovely, Lovely Piece, Maria. Earthy, Peaceful, and Serene. Mottled and Smudgey, if those are the right words. But still very much, Vividly Visceral. Sensual. And Tantric. Very. Melts In My Mouth, Smooth Tou Thuh Touch. Lady Canvas Tantric Sguish, Soh Supple Ihn Mai Palms. Yes Please. Yes Please. For a very long time now, Maria, I've experienced these Vivid Recurring LSD Dreams, involving The Two Of Us embraced similarly. My strong hands and calloused palms so supply squeeze You at your Hips, and so too do I run my textured fingertips along your naked Back, and up to your elegant, shapely Shoulders, textured grip upon which as I Manifest With You, This Embrace, slowly, softly, deeply, and fully, lovingly do I Thrust into You, your wonderful Lady Skin and your Lady Curves, so elegantly supple Simple Sguish Sklush Squeeze Delush, one vibration and one voice between us that of The Universe, as I run my strong fingers through you...

Wen Ihn Doubt, Kiss Deh Maria. Gonna Kiss Deh Maria, Lickey Lick Lick.

Getting home around 0300, the woodland birds roost in the trees and the mature flowering shrubs that blanket this relatively quiet neighborhood. Chirping, chirping far into the night. Delicate airy song that welcomes The Twilight soon to come. These Simple Pleasures that can only be appreciated by the virtues of Patience, and Openness In Listening. The Quiet Within, focused and calm are we now, as such now may we hear, feel, taste, and fully appreciate, the song of the land; this wind that blows through the old-growth maples and oaks down by the river, and the song of these birds past the banks, so subtly tucked away in their roosts until this Dawn soon to come. 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

We have a nice Backyard here at work, overgrown with vegetation, and amongst this earthen oasis sits our large trailer-mounted smoker. On most nights after Closing I sit back here for an hour or two, earth, ground cover, and Zhuh, and I doze in a wrought iron lawn chair under the stars. This is my Quiet Time, my Alone Time, and my Meditation Time. Perfect space for me to hang a 2-point non-spreader hammock, and retire for the night under the stars. It's a good thing to periodically Unplug, Isolate, and Recalibrate, and let Nature quietly take its course. Meditation, a slow, lingering, gradual process. To let our bare feet rest in the dirt, as the clouds dot the skies and the stars dot the heavens far beyond.

I still have a difficult time to Relate to Most, but I've been consciously applying myself to more readily socially engage my work peers when at work. Subtle gestures and exchanges, laughter and smiles, silliness too. It's becoming ever more comfortable with each passing week. Yes I'm Resilient, I can build a shelter in the woods and be fine, but I'm also Fragile in certain ways too. Forcing myself every day at work to more fluidly engage my peers in The Social Sense. Because I need to be Honest with myself, remind myself every day that despite all of my Progress to date, I still have alot of outstanding Homework to do with my Socialization efforts. Resilience, is about getting out of bed in the morning, and choosing to Rise Above, to Get Up, Stand Up, and Transcend ones weaknesses and shortcomings, instead of Giving Up. It feels good to Struggle and then Prevail.

Maria. We must not fear The Darkness, and we must not let ourselves be blinded by The Light. Pain that burns, Truth that stings. Hurt and Suffering, lest we forget, that which makes us Compassionate, Empathetic, and Understanding. Bitter, Salty Tears, lest we forget, that which trickles down our dirtied, soiled cheeks. Hurt and Suffering as they trickle forth upon skin dirtied, soiled, calloused, poison percolates thus released. Tattered Threads, woven of a sturdy cloth but now faded, torn, ragged, and stained. Hurt and Suffering lest we forget, shackled monster rattles the cage. Shrouded in Darkness, tattered and threadbare hangs by a string, but too lest we forget, once before and once again are we clean and pure internally, Righteous Path, Unshaken In Our Faith. Darkest Hour, Tattered Flag, Threadbare. Alkonost, Voice Resounded, Underneath These Wings. And so I whisper her name. We must always remain Unshaken In Our Faith. Lest...

I want to share the rest of my life with You Maria. Us Together. I'm surrounded left and right by Noise, Distractions, Players, Schemers, Swindlers, False Pretenses, Pipe Dreams, and False Hopes. Fabricated Lies manifested by cells and conglomerates to Deceive, Lead On, and Mislead. I'm old enough now, that all that I desire is to build a quiet and private life with those who are important to me, and to share it all with those select few. I want to live it all and experience it all with You Maria, as My Forever Wife, My Best Friend, and My Life Partner. Cut out all of the Noise, and focus on what is truly important. You're extremely important to me, Maria. You will never have All Of The Answers for me, as it is impossible to Know And Master, All. But You are and will always be, My Everything, worthy of all of my Blessings. Please do join me after finishing School, Maria. I want to phase all of the Filler and Distractions out of my life, and build immense and com...

And I am so very fortunate and Blessed, to have cultivated the seeds for This Forever Bond With You, Maria. Spiritually Deep, Rich, and especially Enlightening. Not everyone is so lucky to have this very deep connection with You. I want to share my very deepest thoughts and dreams with You in the flesh, and watch your Emotions quietly rise to the surface; that I may in the flesh, feel this soft yet sweeping Metamorphosis on your part, this gentle yet vast swell of your Feelings, manifest before me, your most vulnerable Energy thus delivered forth and handled with Care and Empathy on my own accord....That right there, will be The Greatest Feeling Ever for me. I want to connect profoundly in the flesh with your most vulnerable Energy, pull it so gently and gradually to The Surface, and I want to handle You and embrace You thus so particularly Bare and Exposed, with the utmost Care, Empathy, and Mindfulness. I want to deeply connect like this with You every day in the flesh, regard...

I want to run my fingers through your hair, and wrap my arms around You warmly, Hug You every day and feel the warmth of your skin against mine. I want to gaze into your eyes, nuzzle noses and Kiss, softly, gently. Relaxing. And soothing. Your lips meet with mine, and your shapely Lady Hands wrapped around my back while mine are wrapped around You. Quiet, soothing Kiss, with You the sweetest and earthiest of these Emotions, so mellow, quieting, needn't say a word. Your lips and mine, together one life, one voice, and one pulse, coalesced as we Kiss. I want to sit down with You every day Maria, and offer all that is Me. My Hands to massage and caress your delicate features, My Listening to take in and savour your thoughts, lusts, desires, ambitions, and dreams to be shared. My Voice to soothe and calm your spirit, My Emotions, deepest of thoughts and feelings manifested just for You. I want to caress your every curve and contour, and through my Hands feel your Emotions seep...

Good night, Love. I so very much look forward to all that You will share with me in the flesh. Learning on all frequencies and wavelengths. Physical. Metaphysical. Spiritual. Emotional. I will Learn so so much from your breadth and depth of Emotions, embodied. I know that they're present internally and that You feel things very deeply, because, as one who also feels Emotions very deeply, your Presence makes my entire body resonate in ways that very very few are or ever will be ever to make, resonate. And this is why I've wanted so deeply to Marry You, Maria, and be Your Amazing Forever Husband. I feel so lucky to be able to Marry You and cultivate This Forever Marriage With You; This Exactly has been a recurring Dream of mine, for many, many years now. Now that I get to manifest it in real life, I feel like The Luckiest Man In The World. Every day do I wish to wrap my Warrior Arms and Strong Hands around your delicate Lady Features and bare skin, hands resting on ...

When the time shall come Maria, for us to be Together and Settle Down, please do be Patient with me. I am still in many ways Semi-Feral, and not yet fully normalized to sharing my deeply intimate spaces with a Someone Else. Please do, take your time with me once Together. At this point in my Healing, I am stronger than words will ever be able to convey, but periodically I am skittish and protective of my personal space. I know for sure that I'll warm up fully to You in the flesh, it will just take time. Your Patience will be Rewarded. No need to be Shy or Hesitate with me, because I Trust You fully and deeply. I know intimately, that You understand. Please be sure to engage me with lots of Soft Gentle Touch, as this very effectively disarms me. Works like Magic on me. I Trust You, Maria. Fully. Deeply. Eternally.

You have been my best friend in all these years.

I imagine that could be us.

I'm up for the day, Dearest. I look forward to Holding Your Hand and walking along The Waterfront with You. I wanna enjoy your company under the shade of these maple trees, and savour your thoughts to be shared with me on that day. Wanna look gently and deeply into your Gaze, Let You Know just how much Ay Love Yoooo. Birds singing and green maple leaves dance in the pleasant breeze. As I wrap my arm around You and whisper quietly into your ear, "Ay Love Yoooo, Maria. You're My Forever Wife, Ahn Mai Absolute Favourite.". I am so so deeply in love with You, Maria. You are the very fine Singular lady who I wish to Marry. Under the shade of these maple trees down by the river do I wish to exchange our vows in the flesh. I, Your Forever Husband; and You Maria, My Forever Wife. I look forward to Marrying You, Maria. What an immense pleasure it will be, to share my living-and-breathing life with You as My Forever Wife. You're Uh May Zing, Maria, My Sup...

It is no Casablanca. But like the main characters in this film, I imagine finding ourselves taken to the distant past, to an era we'd fit better in than the present ... say the 1920's or the Renaissance ... and fall in love.

I had uh Vivid LSD Dream last night, that we were sharing uh Long, Long, Delicate Kiss in the nude. You have me under your Spell, Maria, with your particular Gaze, so Soft and Quiet, and yet also so Strong in ways neither clear nor obvious to most others. But I See, Maria. I see, in ways that most others, will not or can not. And I'm always really, under the influence of your Spell. Your Gaze and Your Presence, makes my entire body, Resonate. I want to be Your Super Special Man, in the flesh. To Marry You, so that I may be fully immersed in all of your deep thoughts and Emotions manifested, voiced and unspoken alike. To be Your Very Closest and to share your hand in Forever Marriage, this exactly is what makes my entire body, Resonate. So please do, Maria, Lay With Me, Clothed, Nude, and Otherwise. I want to feel all of your Emotions, let them infiltrate and reside within me. Please, place your Eyes all over me, and your Gaze too. You are My Everything, I want to feel t...

That I may share the rest of my life with You, Dearest Maria. That You may become My Very Closest. I've never been in a Relationship or Romance, so I'm not sure how I'll Please You or Keep Your Interest once together in the flesh as Life Partners. But I want to be Your Everything. Maria. I want to be your Divine Inspiration, every day for the rest of my life. My hope is that once settled down together in the flesh, You will always feel right at home with me, and that I may always inspire My Dearest to Profound Growth. You are My Everything, Maria. My Everything.

Maria. The Key To Happiness, is to Love Yourself so deeply and so intensely, that nobody else will be able to steal from You that Inner Fire. That No Weapon Formed Against You, Shall Prosper. I can only Love You, as much as I Love, Myself. Can't give for You, that which has not already been Synthesized Within and, Internalized, on my part. I want to build a life with You in the flesh, not only because I Adore, Cherish, and Respect You like that, but because too, I've grown to Love Myself more than sufficiently to be content with my space of dwelling and my mode of life, my space of Rest, and my Whys, my Motivations that get me up and out every day in the early hours. These collections of Ideas and Mantras, and this State Of Mind that we call, Home. Please. I want to Marry You, and Build A Living-And-Breathing Life With You. Please.

Maria. And You in particular, are very Special for me. 99% of all others love me only conditionally, and are not interested to Get To Know Me. The vast vast majority who will love me if and only if I'll give them $$. And 99% of all others, are afraid to approach me or be seen close with/to me. They, the vast vast majority who keep me at a distance like Poison. But You are genuinely interested to become very very Close with me, for the simple enjoyment of Being With Me. I feel the same about You. That is an extreme rarity for me, a Someone who is not afraid to get to know me so deeply. Brings tears to my eyes sometimes, knowing that You care so deeply about Me. I am so Blessed and Lucky to have You in my life, Maria. You who so profoundly Cares. The Feeling Is Mutual, because, I Love You For You. Lights Out.

I've been thinking alot lately, Maria, how great it will be. To share my Everything with You. My soon-to-be, cozy Fixer House. My sacred space. And my very deepest thoughts, all in the flesh. To share it all with You, Maria. This Life, Together. Us, Together. The bumps, jolts, and countless, innumerably many little victories, Along The Way. Our most profound thoughts, our divine Company, and our most candid and vulnerable selves. And, our most intimate, fragile, and essential, essences. Our Most Intimate, Truest Selves. To share it all in the flesh with You, Maria. This is what I desire so very deeply on the inside. Please do, Marry Me. Maria. Please, I wish to accept your hand in Marriage, and serve You as, Your Very Own Weirdo, Your Very Closest, and, Your Very Own, Forever Sol. This is how much You mean to me, Maria. You mean This Much to me, and Even More.

Alkonost. Upon Raging Waves. Darkest Hour. Tattered Sails. Impassable Seas. Seventh Day. Voice That Soars Above All. End Of Suffering. https://www.instagram.com/wendyortizart/ https://www.instagram.com/p/yYIdVzOcZT/ https://www.wendyortizart.com/

there is always that space there just before they get to us that space that fine relaxer the breather while say flopping on a bed thinking of nothing or say pouring a glass of water from the spigot while entranced by nothing that gentle pure space it's worth centuries of existence say just to scratch your neck while looking out the window at a bare branch that space there before they get to us ensures that when they do they won't get it all ever. ++++++ It's Ours, by Charles Bukowski

Kitten Incarnate. Wolf In Wolf's Disguise. Raven, Masterpiece. October Rust, November Rain. Stillness Of February, Ides Of March. Flight Of The Raven, First Rite Of Spring. Quiet, Paradise. https://www.pinterest.com/pin/634937247439126677/ https://i.pinimg.com/736x/fb/58/11/fb5811300691fbbcdbc3bf80fcd34c22.jpg

I woke up today, Thinking About You. Coming together in the flesh, softly exchanging long, long quiet glances. Giggling, sending each other Energy with which to be played, remanifested, fluidly reshaped into an Origami Masterpiece, and sent back to The Other. Two Kittens together personified, on this fine Spring day. I want to be with You in the flesh, so that I may gaze into your eyes for a long, long time. Many lingering glances, playful gestures sent forth to You like a feather that floats down into your open Palms, to be held, reshaped and blessed, sent back to me in a way that only Maria can. Please, join me please please in the flesh. I want to be Your Very Own, Kitten Incarnate, Raven Masterpiece. https://www.pinterest.com/pin/634937247439126677/ https://i.pinimg.com/736x/fb/58/11/fb5811300691fbbcdbc3bf80fcd34c22.jpg

Yeah, can't wait to Blow Yooo Uh Kiss. Yeah, can't wait to Give Yooo, Uh Kiss. Yeah, Uhn Deh Cheek, Ryte Thare. 😋😋😋😋 Kiss Uhn Deh Cheek, Oh Yes. 😋😋😋😋

Please do, allow me so gently hold your Lady Hands in mine once again, so deeply do I desire to continually Shape and Sculpt You. Unearth your hidden gems long dormant and thus not yet fully manifested. I want to see your Emotions delicately percolate to the surface, linger and manifest, as I shall guide You along gently so, into, The Great Unknown. That I may empower You and stir You to Emotions long suppressed, decayed, abandoned, and forgotten. Let it all quietly rise to the surface, Dearest Maria My Love. Let it all ooze to the surface, I do and will Love You all the same, because I see and sense and feel all that You embody deep within, these rare hidden gems. Cut are You of a very rare and highly prized cloth, just as I am. Your Lady Hands In Mine, Rare Gems Unearthed, My Deep Love Unspoken.

This is the thought of you, in a picture. It's what you do inside me. You make me bloom.

The truth is that, the more intimately you will know someone, the more clearly that you'll see their flaws. That's just the way that it is. This is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, and why friendships don't last. You might think that you Love someone until you will see the way that he/she will act when out of money or under pressure or hungry. But Love is somethig different. Love is to choose to serve someone and be with someone in spite of his/her filthy heart. Love is patient and kind, Love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice. To Love is to see the darkness in another person, and defy the impulse to Jump Ship. Righteous Path. May my Love thus professed be made known again, and be doubled and redoubled in times of darkness. Yes, may this Process Of Belief cast away the doubt, and the shadows, and the self-loathing, and the anger. May my Love thus professed, be made known again. Remanifested in, ...

Takes a very profoundly wise individual, to understand and appreciate this Depth that I share and manifest. You see, feel, understand, and appreciate deeply, my Energy that has been thus shared for all of these years. Even though your Quietness lingers most of the time, I know that You feel what I share, deeply, deeply. I Know. One of many, many reasons why, I wish to Build A Life With You In The Flesh. That we may create a shared space for Us to share fully and completely. Us, Together. Where words will sometimes fall short, we will have our life together in the flesh, to share with each other, the Energy that escapes description or words. As one who is very highly Spiritually Aware, I know intimately of your deep profound wisdom, Maria. Definitely a rare gem in a world of Sheep, dormant maybe at times, but always there unspoken, and I want to Partake, Learn From You Always. Us, Together, because, I wish to Partake of your most intimate thoughts and feelings unspoken, that...

Really good prose is something that will make The Author shed a tear, or weep softly just by revisiting the flow and all that has been presented thus on the paper. Let your Emotions flow freely, and don't feel the need to approach your meter and rhyme scheme with a rigid set of conventions. With your prose, let yourself know exactly how You feel, and don't worry about or think about establishing structure. Write when the tears trickle forth, and in due time the formatting and typesetting will become clearer and clearer still to see and feel. Meditation will help You immensely to tune deeply into the very deep viscerality and rawness of your Emotions. With Meditation, You will unearth these rare uncut gems buried deeply within, and then with further Meditation, You will manifest the words to correlate to All That You Feel. As one who is very, very deeply Spiritually Aware, I know for a fact that You feel things deeply. And with a long-commitment to Meditation, yo...

Our Poetry is supposed to emanate a living-and-breathing quality and essence, in order to pull the reader deeply inward, and pull him/her ever deeper still. Thus is the essence of Emotion. Poetry is analogous to Meditation. Not necessarily something to be rigidly structured in accordance with set rules and constructs or convention. Breathing. Ebbing, flowing. Receding waters, breaking waves gently wash over your feet as foam, one among us, reunited once again with our Creator, heels and metatarsals so softly rest in the wet sand. Sitting there quietly in the late afternoon hours upon doorstep of twilight, so then does the sun cast a red-orange glow upon your face, as another warm blanket of foamy water reaches out again and kisses your feet awaiting. The ocean breeze in my veins, gentle orange glow of the sun god illuminates my hair sits so freely upon your shoulders, nothing set in stone as the foamy waters wash over my feet and breathe new life into my tired soul. There do I re...

I asked myself if it's the mere "idea" of you I have fallen in love with. You know as well as I do, that You and I are each and both much more than just, "Ideas". If I was just an Idea, then You would be able to pick up a book about me, read it 100+ times, and then have attained a Mastery Of Me. But we are each much more than just an Idea. We are dynamic, living and breathing, always changing, a continual evolution of our respective selves. Ideas don't mature unless a Sequel or Sequels or Derivative Fanart(s) is/are penned. Ideas don't have minds and wills of their own, for they are merely manifestations of The Creator's Thoughts, to be dispatched and manifested in accordance with His/Her desires and will. This is why we are each much much more than just Ideas. Alright. This is why I so desire so deeply to Be With You In The Flesh. You're not an Idea, Maria. I can't simply pick up a book and be enli...

Meditation is key to tuning into The Quiet Within; this presence, that which only The Individual In Question may hear and discern. Take more time for yourself, Dearest Maria. Because, while individuals like myself may guide You on this journey along This Path Overgrown So Seldomly Traveled, only You may fully tune into your own, Quiet Within. I will Guide You on this journey, Maria. But at times I will Let You Go, allow You to float away to sea, unassisted and untethered thus, carried away by the tide. But fear not, for I will always have full faith in your abilty to make your way back to Safety with Me. Just know that, during your Struggle, during your Darkest Hour, waning candlelight that flickers, I will always, always be right by your side, the loyal servant's hand that will protect and shield the flame from fizzling, extinguishing, expiring, and fading into, This Cold Empty Darkness, all that will remain in a world devoid of Safety, Comfort, and, Familiarity. Trust...

We must Suffer and Struggle, in order to reach and attain Enlightenment. But through this journey thus unnamed, will we gather the strength unspoken necessary to live, breathe, manifest, and share, these emotions deep within that will endure in our respective Legacies through our Writings.

Meditate. Speak Less. Observe, More. Force yourself to experience Discomfort. There is a certain Viscerality that may only be experienced by Isolation. Separate yourself from all that is Interference, and all that manifests as Noise. Choose your environment carefully. Separate yourself from The Familiar, and let The Great Unknown, pull You in, envelope You fully. What did The Buddha do to reach Enlightenment? Isolation. Separation from The Familiar. Separation from The Opulence. Separation from the safety of The Palace. Where Words Stop, The Quiet, Speaks. The Quiet Without. The Quiet, Within. Then, and only then will our Suffering, forever be laid to rest. Ruins of Rome, silently stand do these Limestone and Marble Relics, Funeral of a King once heralded and mighty. Let the tears flow as they may. It's okay to Cry, its okay to Weep. For You thus separated from The Familiar, isolated, exposed in ways not previously, Enlightenm...

Sol is the hope I whisper Among the winds that hew the hills.

Maria. I Cried by myself a bit here on this fine Spring morning. Emotions resurface, gently do they percolate to the surface, moves me from very, very deeply within. Thank You, Thank You. Thank You. For sharing your candid and intimate self here with me, Maria. Past, present, and future. You open me up to the feeling of these rich, warm, and visceral Emotions that are by my own devices, often inaccessible and out of reach, a foreigner in a land not his own. One of many, many reasons why I think so very highly of You, Maria. Always and forever Your Super Special Guy, and, your Lifelong Student, Disciple. Please do, continue to shape and mold me with your Delicate Lady Hands. Love You Forever, Maria.

Focus ever so slightly deeper into my Gaze, Maria. Send forth your Energy, as I, too, shall let mine trickle forth freely for You to Taste and Partake without hold. I Want You To, Engage Me, Nudge Up Right Next To Me, Play Wiffth Me, Gaze Into Me, Beyond, Beyond The Physical, And, Taste Me, Partake Of Me, Relish And Delight In All That Is Me, Sun-God Within At The Tips Of Your Fingers, My Queen, My Special Lady, Taste Of Strawberry Kiwi That Lingers, Sweet Mellow Kiss That Trails Upon Smooth Lines Of The Nape Of Your Neck, Shapely Delicate Shoulders And Supple Breasts Exposed, Mountain Spring Trickles New Leaf Manifests So Too Like These Quiet, Windswept Wildflowers Of March, April, Early Gems Of The Season; Lean Back Now Wiffth Me Combs Through Gentle Touch Of Your Fingers, My Hair In Between Savoury Paw Prints Of My Goddess My Queen, Taste That Settles, Returns, And Lingers So Too Like My Tongue O...

Yes Yes Dearest, You are my, Queen. And I wish to, learn so much, with, and from, You. Actively, and, Dynamically. You have alot to teach me, and I want to continue to be your Student, your Pupil, and, your, Disciple. Such is the journey that truly, really truly excites me. So uhhh, yes. Yes. Yes. I am always eager to learn something with You, and for You to shape me in ways that I couldn't have shaped myself. Beyond awesome are You, my Dearest. My Super Special Lady, Very real, as real as these Feelings, Here Today, Always, And Forever. Sun-God kneels before his Queen. Student, Disciple, Simplest Of Sons. Open my eyes to all that You know well, teach me and nourish me with your seed, I will not turn away your delicate Lady Hand, delicate Lady Tongue. Come hither, so gently softly, take your hand in mine, open my eyes to all that I can not see. That I am your Student, Disciple, this above all else, ...

Sol is the fifth note, the sun-god; The man I sculpt with my sallow palms. Oh Yes, Dats Mai Maria.

As I lay here nude on the carpet tonight, legs burning from a long day in the kitchen. I lay here like so Thinking About You, and so do I close my eyes. Knowing that soon, soon enough, I'll have You in my arms here with me, and we'll be able to stretch out and unwind freely, Together, in whatever state of dress or undress that we shall so please. Us Together. A stretched canvas for us to paint in accordance with our respective and collective wills and whims. Us, Together. Path for us to manifest. Path Seldomly Traveled, but also ours to reclaim and rediscover. Distinctly unique, and eternally sacred will our shared journey be, just as it is so distinctly unforgettable now and thus far. Us, Together. I wish for You to join me here, Maria. Please, Soh Much Please. A New Leaf and A Fresh Canvas, that which awaits just for Us, This Brave New World. Such a distinct honour will that be in my eyes. Love You, Soh, Soh Much. 💗💗💗💗💗

I want to do This, with You. Love You Soh, Soh Much, Dearest Maria. https://www.facebook.com/unexpectedjourney007/posts/820976181428767 https://www.fridacastelli.com/ https://www.instagram.com/fridacastelli/ https://www.instagram.com/p/BhA--MRHHgS/

When we'll finally meet in the flesh, I'll wrap my arms around your back, look gently into your clear eyes, and lean in so softly to give You a warm, delicate Kiss. Please do, wrap your arms around my back, too. I want to feel your Lady Palms rest against my skin. And then we'll go on our way, Together At Last. This Embrace so simple, that which I will savour and remember forever. Our Very First Kiss.

Maria. Ay Love Love Love You, Soh, Soh, Much. 😻😻😻😻😻 Maria, Dearest. You are my Cat In The Hat, my Mary Poppins, my Psychedelic Underground, and, my Alkonost, all rolled into one. Oh Yes. You're The Greatest. 💗💗💗💗💗

I need not take any Psychedelics. I just sit down Uhn Deh LSD Couch, Tush Rubs Against Tush, Thing Wun Ahn Thing Tou, Diis Yoooo Ohv Many Hats, Hold Youhr Lady Hanz, Whisper Intou Youhr, Ear, Arms Around Youhr Waist, ahn, Lett Iht Aoull, Flow, Touchey Lickey Rubbey, Oh Yesss. Ryght Heer Wiffth Yoooo, Mai Verry Own, Presto Maria. 😻😻😻😻😻 Theh Maria. Yes Please. Yes Please. Yes Please. Yes Please. 😻😻😻😻😻

My Very Own, Presto, Maria. 😻😻😻😻 Hanz Aoull Ovurr Yoooo, Can Not, Resist, This Temptation Tou Massage Your Scalp, Wiffth Mai Hanz Combz Youhr Hair, Flows Delicately From Within As We Lay Ihn Thuh Nude. Thuh LSD Couch. Mai Hanz Aoull Ovurr Yoooo, Squeeze Youhr Bum, Massage Youhr Back And, Whisper Intou Youhr, Ear. Your Bare Naked Shoulders, So Shapely, Delicious, Hanging Breasts Arched Jusst Soh Ovurr, Thuh LSD Couch. Softly Thrusts Intou Yoooo, Slowly Ahn Deeply, Soh Light Ahs Uh Feather, This Lickey Lick Lick. 😻😻😻😻

I was Dreaming About Yoooo last night, oh Dearest. Steamy, Raunchy, So full of Passion and Lust. Really, Really, Hawt. Yeah, I was Dreaming About You last night, Maria. Upon the plush cushions of Thuh LSD Couch do we sit, linger between stations, like the quiet pause between The Semicolon and The Next Word. Right hand unhinges the top fastener of your jeans, and the other, slips under your shirt, strong calloused Hand rubs against the small of your Back, meanders down into the cleavage of your Bum, and so delicately strokes the tender lips of your anus. One station between us, like the stamp of the conductor upon my chin dated and signed, yes, name of the ensign upon my forehead, and so too, the mark of my two Fingerprints, Bob Ross The Magician, horsehair brush against the tender lips of your anus, median line, warm gentle crease of my Ticket, right along The Perforated Line, eases ever slightly further downward ...

I'm gonna Kiss Yooo Uhn Deh Cheek when we'll finally meet in the flesh. It will be Splendid, and Maria I do believe, will Blush. 😌😌😌😌 Yes. I will delight in that exchange very much. Ay wanna, Mayke Yooo, Blush. 😌😌😌😌 Ay Wanna, make the butterflies in your stomach flutter a bit, share this light and airy floating feeling with You, leaning in Tou Givv Yooo Uh Kiss Uhn Deh Cheek. It will feel really, really good. And I look forward to that day. Theh Maria, Yes Please, Yes Yes Yes Please. 😌😌😌😌

"The most beautiful people that you'll ever meet in This Life, aren't always the ones who will catch your eyes first. No. The most beautiful are the ones that can never be Figured Out. The ones with whom you can talk for many hours and still have a million things to ask. The people who have a mind so lovely and special, that you can't help but fall in love with them." Like, Dat's Yoooo Maria. 😄😄😄😄😄😄 Theh Maria, She Soh Uh May Zing Yes, Yes, Yes She Is. Theh Maria, Yes Please, Yes Yes Yes Please. Maria. You're so incredibly Sexy. Because, of your particular Depth Of Thought. A distinguished, unspoken Profundity Of The Self, that never runs dry, not in any capacity. I think the world of You because of this. Words will never convey how much I adore your essence. I could and do desire deeply to, be with You every day Together At Last, and your Depth Of Thought will never cease to deeply move me and captivate...

Assad The Gasser. White Phosphorus Decends, In The Night. Pain and Suffering come full circle as The City burns crucible in which sacred ground once hallowed now ravaged light, upon which Angel Of Death, mirror image converge, brightest light that burns, eyes opened fully can not be, shielded suffering unfurled, city turns to dust, in the crucible, judgement rendered, scorched bricks in the back of my retina, flash of Light incinerates dreams ambitions collapsed upon me. Abandoned in the dust of the crucible, Light descends, Blinded, immobilized flash of White Phosphorus Desends, In The Night, blinding, caustic, leaves nothing behind in its wake. The tears dry on my cheeks. That all gave some. And that some, gave all. Collective Suffering, to know Pain and Aguish. Given all muffled screams now silenced, shadow of a refuge now dying, shelter among the charred ashes in the crucible, as...

I was thinking today, how great it would be to get way way out into The Boonies with You, pack it up and make a trip out there, way out into Thuh Stixx, and sit together in a highly secluded place, where for as far as the eye will be able to see in all directions, there will exist nothing but majestic rolling hills, old-growth woodland, the fresh water of a river or lake glistening, open fields, wildflowers and wild grasses that gently sway in The Breeze, and the birds that soar so far above our heads in the country sky. Make the trip to Out There, Way Out There, and really truly Savour The Quiet, Enjoy The Silence, Together. Just Us. Among many other things, I want to share this said special experience with You. Many more times than just once. It is places like these to where I often retreated as a Kiddy Kid Kid, no friends, no allies, no one with whom to Connect. A grounding, isolating environment, peaceful and serene, majestic and at rest. I want to get out there with You, a...

Yeah, I was Dreaming About You in the morning, Maria. You stood nude in the shower stall, large palace of tile and of glass, so quietly lathered yourself. Water shut off, shampoo already massaged into your hair, with gentle suds doing their work. I entered dressed similarly, or rather, undressed shall I say, attired, disrobed in full pastel colour for the occasion. Black tie affair, clothing optional. Silently slid open the shiny glass door, shower condensation on the inner glass like on your smooth skin. Stepped into the shower, shadow into Spring light, birds chirp and peep in their roosts outside, as the sunshine filters through the ethereally thick glass-block window. Reach around your hips as the water trickles casually from above and the sunshine filters through, the window, soothing, distorted light, my strong powerful hands on your Navel. Fingers so firmly dig into your skin, subtly assertive Squeeze pulls You in closely, thighs that quiver in my grip, your lathered, so...