Lest We Forget.

I get to talk with her before work, every day, for 2 or 3 minutes.

Typically that much. Never less, and almost never more, than that.

So full of Emotion, Emotionally Vibrant, Animated, while I can feel nothing, can feel no Emotions, even though I try to the best of my abilities.

Well-Spoken, knows just what to say, while I, Emotional Dead Zone, am at a loss for words,

don't know at all, what to say, what to offer, how to, Relate.

Before more than a few words can be exchanged, she is gone, and I am once again, Alone.

My 10 minutes of Genuine Companionship per week, where I have the attention of another, and for a 2-3 minute interval, I am not Last Place, not Last Choice, and not The Throw-Away, The Defect. She does not Run Away, even though all of the others typically do, doesn't turn away, doesn't, hide her face.

Makes me feel Welcomed, makes me feel like I am Wanted Here.

Little bit of affection, this, yes this, one of the highlights of my day. Makes me feel like there is some Community somewhere afar, somewhere distant, that is just waiting for me to arrive and step foot unto the scene.

These 2-3 minute intervals, are a special treat for me. A Someone who Listens, who accepts my presence, and who is happy to share the emotional space with me. This Someone, who allocates a space for me, so that for 2-3 minutes every day, I may nudge so slightly closer to her, and feel her Energy, and be reminded, how it feels, to feel, truly feel, Emotion.

If only she knew, how much this little short blip on the radar, means to me.

Makes my day, worth living.

To not be Pushed Away, to not be Turned, Away, well, that is Something Special.

It feels good, brings tears to me eyes. Could only Weep Quietly by myself after work tonight, don't know yet, how to take in and process, all of that Energy.

10 minutes of Genuine Companionship per week. Wow, that is Something Special.